attention seeker

his hands 
touching someone else, 
his face 
more open 
and direct
full of enjoyment
eyes shining
enjoyment smile
loud laugh
just like a kid
in the school-yard
it's him
it's 
.. .......
trying so hard. 

-by tonkadella
on attention seeking behaviour in adults

too many times

too many times
I kept silent
and again
I let the conversation to 
evaporated .. 
But your words
Stay
to do the work
like some parasites 
who feed on its host
and 
Once grown
they release powerful mind-controlling 
chemicals

and change their host. 
- by tonkadella

separated heartbeats

our hearts are so distant now.
they can’t hear the beat,
they too far.
sound of the Heartbeat, 
they used to beat 
together.
The distance grows
the Heart gripped by fear.
Fear of losing that 
familiar beat.
the heartbeat,
that is home.
losing home .. 
The heart 
must find a way
to communicate!
and so .. 

it Shouts.

- by tonkadella

Too loud

Words have no value in this harsh exchange.
Too loud.
Noise.
Hurt talks.
Like a wild burning fire fueling itself.
Feeding itself.
Watering itself.
Loud noise.
Two puppets of Pain
in this game.
But if this is the only way .. okay,
Yell.
Do it again 
and again.
Too loud.
If this is the way
You can deal
then be it the way.

Exhaust me.
- by tonkadella 
Emotional Exhaustion Can Lead to Noise Sensitivity

ART Spotlight on London

A group of images selected by Saatchi Art curators, artists, art fans and other community members for your viewing pleasure. And I am delighted my work has been featured in this beautiful collection so I wanted to share.

http://www.saatchiart.com/art-collection/Painting-Collage-Printmaking/Spotlight-on-London/685448/116563/view

Human and Being

You might be doing all the right things and the best you can for your relationship, but even doing the best you can is not enough. In fact, doing is never enough, if you neglect Being. The ego knows nothing of Being, but believes you will eventually be saved by doing. If you are in the grip of the ego, you believe that doing more and more you will eventually accumulate enough “doings” to make yourself complete at some point in the future. You won’t.

You will only lose yourself in doing. How do you bring Being into your life and relationships? You are a human being. Mastery of life is not a question of control, but of finding balance between human and Being. Human is form and Being is formless.

From pages 103-105 Role playing, the many faces of the Ego – A New Earth book by Eckhart Tolle