If I stayed I would be proving myself to others,
I had to leave to prove myself to myself.
If I Stayed I would love myself less,
I had to leave to love myself again.
If I Stayed I would allow you to make me feel worthless,
I had to leave to see my value.
If I stayed I would lose myself.
I had to leave to find me.
If I stayed I would be always tired,
I had to leave to become alive.
If I stayed I would watch you hurting me more,
I had to leave to heal.
If I stayed I would suffocate,
I had to leave to breathe.
I didn't leave because I stopped loving you,
I left because I had to love me too.
.. I write this to tell you, that all is well. Stop worrying, stop thinking too much. Start living and feeling fully this beauty that life is now. Look around you and find joy. Then stay in that joy as long as you can. Hear the birds and find the pleasure in their song. Then stay in that pleasurable feeling. See the beauty in everyone you meet. Then stay in that brilliance. Feel the energy of earth and universe. Smell the unique scent of the nature. Taste the freedom of your spirit and dreams. Touch others with light and love.
Why does he do that ?
Why is he angry ?
Why does he twists things into their opposites?
Why did he say that?
Why does he feel superior to everyone?
Why he confuses love with abuse?
Why is he manipulative?
Why does he enjoy conflict so much?
Why does he blame me, for what he does?
Why is he telling people lies?
Why having a good public image is all he cares for?
Why control and power is all he fights for ?
Why everyone else thinks he is Wonderful?
Deep down in his heart does he know, Why?
I Wonder ..
How many times have I asked myself, again and again, I wonder ..
then I close my eyes and let go, because I know I will never know.
Seemed so beautiful.
I believed you won't hurt me.
I shared my secret, my deepest truth, I trusted you.
Only to come to find myself in a battle
Me Vs You
I wanted it to be real
you wanted me to kneel.
To fit you.
To align with your idea
you wanted me to be too
Seem so beautiful.
Now you blame me
for your misunderstanding
of who I am
touching someone else,
full of enjoyment
just like a kid
in the school-yard
my husband ..
trying so hard.
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