Seemed so beautiful.
I believed you won't hurt me.
I shared my secret, my deepest truth, I trusted you.
Only to come to find myself in a battle
Me Vs You
I wanted it to be real
you wanted me to kneel.
To fit you.
To align with your idea
you wanted me to be too
Seem so beautiful.
Now you blame me
for your misunderstanding
of who I am
Tonkadellic meaning perfect and heavenly ideal connection in terms of emotional intelligence, empathy, deeper understanding of inner beauty, raw feelings and emotional values. Tonkadellic would stand for harmony of morals, ethics and respect.
Tonkadellian would be a person practising tonkadellism.
Tonkadellism promoting basic human values, like human compassion, human affection. And in that respect, more sensitivity. In politics tonkadellism would play a very important role. Tonkadellism would be practised simply by compromising to retain peace.
First I typed ‘Imposter Syndrome’ into google and started reading this page from Wikipedia. We all know why we should never ever google our symptoms when we are sick. We get more anxious and often diagnose ourselves with a serious disease, then we totally freak out about the false belief. Oh Sooo human! So naturally I have just find out I suffer Imposter Syndrome! Huh? I think. Occasionally. Now, say it, you think I have hypochondria.
I guess suffering from our mindset is a part of human life. The mindset depends on what happens to us and around us. This is the external circumstances of life that form our mind. How do we respond to external suffering is what happens inside. We get hurt. We get criticized. Our mind starts to fear, doubt and question our own worth. This infected mind convince our heart that we do not deserve success we’ve achieved. No one wants to suffer, but anyone can suffer from Imposter syndrome sometimes, somewhere, somehow.
To all of you out there sufferingImposter Syndrome and to many high-achieving females, who believe they are not intelligent:
You are more than good enough and you get better every day. Give up the right to criticise yourself. Praise yourself. See the perfection in all your genius. Approve of who you are. Don’t judge yourself. You are both good and great at all times.
You are both contributing and it doesn’t matter that you contribute less and your husband much more, because you both giving yours all you have. In marriage, we do not look at math calculations between her withdraws from the account and his deposit to it, because that is how love works. And love is all we need.